the moment i thought

the moment i thought i still wanna be friends like before, u still making your 'unjoke' humor sense.
the moment i thought there's a chance for u to change, u still appear the same.
the moment i thought u are a good guy, u turn out to be bad, pathetic.
the moment i thought u are a devil, u actually a nice person.
the moment i forgetting u, u keep telling me u in love with me.
so which one are u?? im confius!!dun let me b one..

starvation to death???

ouchh!!my stomach just keep grumbling..shud i o shud i not keep fasting??pliese2..can i eat??it still early in the morning..

i noe i wanna change..to be better..hope..n this starvation is one of the challenge i need to handle.but it seems to hard to keep it continue..gosh..i really not that strong as u expected.i keep on imagine things(food with a yummy super duper smooth soup cooked fined with the chicken) GOSH!!i am terliur

but if im not continue this..i guess im not exactly that ready to change..is this changing really this hard??seyesly..im not sure why..but this is the hardest fasting i have..after i niat to change..hurm..

PATIENT!!just patient faa..tomorrow cud be handy

juz wan 2 shout!!

he's da one i really want after i noe him. he's da one im aiming for after i noe him yet, he still da one i let it go after i noe him!! the truth revealed. actually we want each other but not sure wat happen suddenly that dream is keep hidden.


I sayang kan u..deeply!(u can asked my rumate too) but it seems im da one syok sdr. im afraid. i noe u were just like me..my old times. but it was too late too noticed that. im sorry..please forgive me...


p/s: hopefully u really meant that.

jangan berkata jika tak pasti

what u will think for someone who seems willing to do anything for u, do anything u asked, yet it just a halfway path. errkk?? i mean he said he will do it..but only half way. ergh!!!!!im real mad here!! not once but twice so far i felt it this way. hey hey..it may sound little, but wat happen when he would do as much as he wants?? and what if the thing is a real big thing??gosh!!ive been giving chances to this one man before and there's the mistake happen. HATE IT!! there's no way im giving u chances that make my heart sank once more again(even for another man)..thank gudness we dun have anything to tie us up. At least i can find a new other guy. YEAY!!!

but how can i forget u in just a minute second and telling u im not 'things' u could do the same thing again and again..


[p/s : dun let us the female on the man's feet]

no couple, juz married..will ya??

saye makin hari makin suke pada kamu..but i dont want to have any seyes relationship..im targeting no couple at the mean time juz be married. but hey, trying to have the married status at the 23 and having a perfect car with a perfect at least an apartment by myself and he juz grad and me juz have my own work for A YEAR and were planning of having a grand ceremony..gosh!!i really need money. Im DESPERATE!!



anyway, i am confusing and had a very long thoughts too. I think i really making mess in ur pureness heart and still im not really sure if u are the one even i really well known ur behavior really drives me crazy!DAMN! u really stole my heart, dude. Please take care that well. huh!i know u will. I just afraid of me, myself. it's really hard just to keep still with this one person. Beside, my status still single..hee~

Actually, the real probs here i really afraid if i let u down.
..What if i really like u this time but as the time passing by, i like somebody else.
..or wat if im the one hoping for more and u were not?
i really afraid with this kind of things. owh, god..please if he is the one, take me to him. If not, get him out of my blood.