V.O.M.I.T

Vows On Meeting In Time What will you do when you were heading to see a person that you really missed a lot plus with the first 'dating' after 10 years? Happy, Nervous, Anxious, or you just want to vomit the minute you open up a car door? Eeewww! I know. What's on Earth does people do that. But i did. It is soooooo unforgivable! Haha The story here happen when unexpectedly suddenly like tremendously I said yes to meet that person. It's a bit awkward and I just don't know what kind of topics were gonna talk. Besides, we are just talking n facebook-ing each other after that 10th year. Don't you feel it's really MUST NEED to see that person when you know exactly that perhaps only this is the last year were gonna see each other? Next month that person will go back to the where they are-Southampton. Hmm..hearing the adventure stories obviously i felt envy..duhh! Hee~ Thank you for spending your time. You are a really good friend of me. Thank you Thank you so MUCH! We really having fun together.

Puas rasa bila dapat lepaskan apa yang dah pergi

salam. lepas lama aq xsanggup nk jmp die..akhirnya aq brani kan diri jugak. die mkin bhgie..elok lah mcm tuh. mmg tu pn wish aq sblm ptuskn sgale hbgn dgn die..dluw pn aq xlah baek mne. tpgruh dgn kwn. tula akibatnya. aq xjd aq. tp smuenya da tlambat. slh kami berdue buatkn smuenye jd mcmni. xpe aq la punca permulaannya. aq pn bosan gak mstuh. lme2 sgt. die pn kte nk kwen lmbt. aq nk cpt. mknenye kami mmg dr awl xde jodoh. itu hny skdr hiburan hidup.

lps lama kami menyepi akhirnye aq decide sje nk tny nk kaba. alhamdulilah smuenye wokeyh. aq ngat aq xmampu. aq mampu upenye siap tgk gmbr tiap romantik moment die..pergh..aq bhgie bila dia bhgie. papepn kami ttp kwn mcm dluw. cume kat cnie aq btul2 nk minx maaf. utk diri aq sdr. aq mengaku ada ketika aq tersosial lbeyh. walau mcm tuh aq ttp thu jg maruah. sosial itu hny sementara. aq tergoda dgn dunia xseberapa. bkn aq sng dipengaruhi. tp aq jz nk rs dunie dowg tuh mcmne. aq xderla smp p tpt mne2 mlm2. aq hny berjalan bwk dri siang hri je. aq msih ank makaya. so there's no way nk p mne2 tnpe hala tujuan memlm bute.

ap yg aq wat dluw mgkin xditerima die. die berdiam dan berfikir. die..ntah..aq xtny dan xnk pn tny ap yg die fikir. biarkan je. yang lepas biar lepas. tp aq tahu die xsuke aq melepak bersama mereka. walau macam tu, kwan ttp kwn. dowglah yg ajar erti kwn sbnr. xde kepuraan dan penuh kesetiaan. ms skola dlu, bkn xder yg kwn sbnr, tp ssh nk crik. msing2 ade niat. yela..target bg budak howt nk crik gosip. pe jee yg budak howt xtaw gosip terkini. kn3?? kdg2 walau kwn ttp kne simpan rahsia tu btul2. jgn tslh bg. sdikit sumber blh mengembangkan sgalenye. dan payah bile ade cikgu pn nk msuk cmpur.

kwn biarlah ramai. biarlah kt sedar spe didunia nie. yg baik kt ambek. yg jht kt tnggalkan. aq ttp kwn sume. tp aq tahu jarak mne tiap hubungan sbgai seorang kwn. dan aq pljri sumenyer. dan aq mengerti sebab die pergi. maafkan aq xdpt jdik yg terbaik. aq cbe utk tdk memberikn segalanya. jiwa dan hati penah diremukkan oleh sang die yg gila. mungkin skunk die dah berubah. dan awk..jd titian sy utk bergerak maju ke hdpn kluar dr kepompong takutkan dan bencikan sume laki. maafkan sy disaat sy temui keberanian sy bergaul dgn bermcm prgai pulak. sowie yea..

sy berusaha utk berubah. walau jujurnya sy dah bosan dgn perhubungan yg lama secara mendatar..yela..awk spm then sy plak spm tp sy nk awak tahu sy terima kasih dekat awk krn pernah terima saya. dan perpisahan kt buatkan sy lebih bljr utk menerima dan menyayangi psgn kt. dan sy pn nk awk tahu sy pn bhgie skrg. so kt fair n square la kan..hee~

awak jg dri awak baik2. kalo nk kawen jgn lupe ajk taw. tp asenye ckoplah hny skdr disini. kt xmgkin bertemu lg. sy pn da nk pndh. dan asenye itu yang terbaik. haha ckp da wokeyh tp last2 xbjmpe lg baek..pelik!!bak kate die..ckp cam k****g..ngee~ sy terindu awak dan sy hny nk mnguji ketahanan hati sy je sbnrnyer. btulla..sy dah move on pn..ucap terima kaseh kat org yg sy syg la..die yg terbaik.. ^_^

IS (im sorry)

** this is really pointed to the one who own's my heart **

dear..im sorry..
if i am a trouble maker
and you have to keep advising me to be good all the time but still i cant do it..
that's because all im asking is your attention..

dear..im sorry..
if i keep continue merajuk
and you have to keep pujuk memujuk all the time and sometimes until you lost..
that's because i really like when you give your attention to me 150%..

dear..im sorry..
if i am a big girl with a big tears
and you will be speechless don't no what to think..
that's because it's really hurts when we got into fights..

dear..im sorry..
if i keep asking to eat together with you
and you have to spend your energy walking with me to kedai mamak..
that's because it's really fun having you around by my side..

dear..im sorry..
if i keep texting you all same bored message to take care of yourself
and you have to keep replying my message with 'okeyh'..
that's because i do taking care of you..

and i know..sometimes my ways got you into trouble..im sorry..i really do..
but somehow still i cant help it to be perfectly acting annoyingly to you just to show how i love you..im sorry..

perasaan

kau umpama bidadari
tiap penjuru kau pergi
menyertai aq kau hadiri
tanpe kamu xkan ku sebegini

diamnye kamuh bukan senang tuk dimiliki
mendalami jiwe ku yang sangat sukar difahami
merajuk jeles xtentu hari
memang niat ku untuk dipujuk tiap hari

kau ku lihat tanpe henti
hatiku cair tiap kali
kaulah satu kaulah hati
akan kau ku selamanya di jiwa hati

cinta ku bukan untuk dipamerkan sini
tapi inilah nilai ku berikan pada si dia sini
ku harap kau mengerti
kau lah yang ku pinta setiap hari =D

p/s : to my mr.mzo

Hutang Owh Hutang

wokeyh geng..ader org request suh wat officially sal hutang..haa..utang pe??hoho..

cara menebus hutang..
1- petang-petang pegi jog kat pantai.
2- belikan aiskrim
3- bagi kasih sayang double tripple billion trillion ahh
4- berikan senyuman manja
5- belikan 1 hari jadi hak milik kekal saya sblm kt kawen..

hoho..5 jer?? nie je yg dpt aq pkir..hmm...xtny agy die stuju x?? ase-ase die sokong ke x eyh..??

p/s : xpe..nanti law da ader idea bru nk byr utang aq tmbh list agy..hoho

Fairytales of an Ogre

There was a girl living by the wood all by herself. But she was not alone. She had this tiny little friends who really made her life easier. One day she's walking alone and got in trouble by herself.

She screamed out loud but there is no one could helped her or even heard her. She started to worry and thinking and wishing how she would appreciate her life even better.

Suddenly, DUM!!DUM!!DUM!!! she heard. She really want to scream but her voice didn't came out. She terified. She saw an ogre coming to her. She pretend to be dead but the ogre did not believed. He tried everything he can to save this little girl and to see her wake up again. She could not help herself lying to an ogre who has this kindness in his heart. Eventhough he is an ogre and he is really big and he stinks and he has this bad breath but he is the one she wished for. So then, she and the ogre falling in love.

One day, the ogre dicided to take her to go shopping in the town for their wedding day. She's really excited. She went to all different store just to find the best of the best. Because of her ogre made everyone scared, the kingdom forbidden him from coming to the town. There she goes, shopping for herself back again. The ogre only could have faith to his heart.

She went to the last store in the town. She finally met her jewellery that suit her dress. She paid to the cashier. Her eyes meet his. Her heart pumping non-stop. Her temperature raising up and her breathe pushing her taking maximum oxygen. He's perfect! The body, the face, the smile and even the eyes. She could not resist to get to know him better even she knows her ogre is waiting for her. but she doesn't care. All she care she want to know him and that's it.

They really have a great time. It seems the cashier have feelings to her too. She felt great! She really wanted him but she also could not forget her beloved ogre. She kept moving with the cashier. He gave him flowers, gave her jewellery, beautiful dresses she could not even imagine. She is happy. She really felt like a princess. In the day, she is with the cashier but when the night come out, she started to think about her ogre.

One day, she's looking at the sky and there's a moon. Full moon. It's pretty. She cried. She remembered how her ogre keeps telling her that she's really beautiful and always be his full moon in his heart. She realized her mistakes. She's been dragging away to search a better guy but she's forgetten that her ogre is the best among the best. Her ogre accepted as who she were. All her goodness or her badness, he's willing to accept for him loving her all by his heart. No one could ever replaced her. She knows. But the cashier, he is a nice person but he doesn't even know her very well. Does he will accept her like her ogre? Does he will love her like her ogre did? Does he will always be his full moon?

Before sunrise, she run back to the place where she should be, by the woods. She run to his ogre and promise herself she will not turning back and the ogre will always be in her heart and be her full moon. They then married and have a lot of kids and they live happily ever after as she is also and ogre but the fairy godmother had turn her to be beautiful princess and the ogre is the prince who had turn to an ogre by the wicked witch. She then knows her stands, finally.

p/s : Love truly all by your heart (muahh my baby Munchkin koo~)

reading up my diary

how do u feel when sumone read ur diary that says :

Dear diary, he really did smtg to me!gosh!thought no one wouldn't realized. guess im wrong. it showed all over my face. i just couldn't resist. How could sumone i love forget my besday?? Not only that..the date he said is sumone else besday..grr~

But that was only an act, nothing more..he edy prepared the whole thg up..SURPRISE!!!! there go.. if only i cud eat him wildly, how ful!! im sooo mad but then there r no words came out only how i really missed him n just wanna hold u tight.

thinking back..actually i am ready for this whole thing n i like to keep it continue..mish u dear..muachhhxx a lot!!!

and that someone who read it..is him..the one im talking about..YES..im shy..but..who cares..that is how i felt =D)

when a little voice said

thinking :
not really sure wats up wif u..i admire u
not really sure how..i choosed u over the one i liked
not really sure why..i give it a try
and i give it a try..

somehow im afraid..we could not be that long
somehow im thinking..i could choose someone over u
somehow im saying..i want to stop all this
and i meant a real stop..

it is not ur fault..it is not anyone's fault
it is only me thinking how early is everything to me now
i dont need this..i dont aim this..at least not now
but i dont know how to say a word to u..i really dont
cause everytime im with u..it seems..u r my drug
.
.
.

there is still a few words left with blur..only the future knows wat will it be

dear diary..

this blog seems to be my second diary of mine..hurm..I MISH U!!I SAYANG U!!hee~
**wats that??lost!!

end edy dillema. here we come the day. let me stay to be..till the end &hearts


im in dillema of choosing a right guy for me..WAS!!but then im finally saw wats the best and i noe..it is him =)) i have this crazy thoughts of hurting him in the future..IF!!yeah..im not that a gud girl..WAS!!but trying to be gud as possible but still..thats only a matter of heart..not my attire n my behaviour..oraite..

the gudness of him makes me fell in lub wif him more n more..gosh!!cant believe i post it here..but to excited to share..hehe..

SAYA MAKIN SAYANG LA PADA KAMUH

juz wan 2 shout!!

he's da one i really want after i noe him. he's da one im aiming for after i noe him yet, he still da one i let it go after i noe him!! the truth revealed. actually we want each other but not sure wat happen suddenly that dream is keep hidden.


I sayang kan u..deeply!(u can asked my rumate too) but it seems im da one syok sdr. im afraid. i noe u were just like me..my old times. but it was too late too noticed that. im sorry..please forgive me...


p/s: hopefully u really meant that.

he making me..

waaa!!what potion did u gave to me?? sob2!! u really making me..&hearts &hearts &hearts..

no couple, juz married..will ya??

saye makin hari makin suke pada kamu..but i dont want to have any seyes relationship..im targeting no couple at the mean time juz be married. but hey, trying to have the married status at the 23 and having a perfect car with a perfect at least an apartment by myself and he juz grad and me juz have my own work for A YEAR and were planning of having a grand ceremony..gosh!!i really need money. Im DESPERATE!!



anyway, i am confusing and had a very long thoughts too. I think i really making mess in ur pureness heart and still im not really sure if u are the one even i really well known ur behavior really drives me crazy!DAMN! u really stole my heart, dude. Please take care that well. huh!i know u will. I just afraid of me, myself. it's really hard just to keep still with this one person. Beside, my status still single..hee~

Actually, the real probs here i really afraid if i let u down.
..What if i really like u this time but as the time passing by, i like somebody else.
..or wat if im the one hoping for more and u were not?
i really afraid with this kind of things. owh, god..please if he is the one, take me to him. If not, get him out of my blood.

im starting to like u..

owh mine..
what a hard situation..there are two guls wif one guy..n this two guls like the same guy..
who will he choose then..??
it's become hard when this two guls are close..real close. only both of this guls don't want to tell the truth even people around keep asking do u like him and the first lady keep answering she like other guy. and the second gul?? well, she juz keep it silent. she juz getting closer to this guy where nobody noes where and when. it's getting worst when the second gul don't wanna give up to tackle him and the first lady always gets everyone advice to tackle him. like my first posting, where im the second gul who never have this spirit for not letting him go. maybe i could only if he not trying to do anythg wat im asking like..


i do request for him not to wearing his cap..his fav cap
and yet he did when he send me to the airport. i did ask him where is the hat and he jz smile n told it's been stolen by whoever. but the point is he did wearing the cap-where it shud be stolen before he was going to hometown.

next, he suppose not going to swim with us but then im the one requested to go with him and he acted as a driver. however, things changed. i suddenly go with the first lady's car not his car as the plan. im in the middle of two; him or her. so i choose her. when she already find out he going too she suddenly decided not to go. and im the one who persuaded her to go with. she's to kind but yet im still not giving up to give him away. im not sure why, but this is the first time i feel it that way. whatever i want sumthg, i must get it. i can let it go easily if he showing me that im no one for him. or myb im the one 'terperasan'.


however, it's seems like he do like the first lady too. We riding bikes and the first lady don't have any bike to ride on and he seems to take care much of her.